What day is it?.....

I am having a day were my brain is refusing to accept that it is not Friday!!! Got up early to take kids to Bathurst.....but that's tomorrow. Let the fire go out because I wouldn't be back till late....but that's tomorrow. Made plans for seeing M....because I forgot my Dad was visiting.....and so on....

I wonder what day it will feel like tomorrow?

Not to worry, at this point it seems a long way away.....My eight year old has been wandering around the house for hours making the "WAKKA WAKKA" noise from PACMAN.....Another two weeks of school holidays.....What's a bet this headache lasts for that long. Love my kids....I mean really love them....but just some days I wish the could both be quiet at the same time.

So off to Bathurst tomorrow to pick up my mate Mel.....Then back to Mountains for dinner at my place with Mel and the lovely M.... Hope they get on! They will.....

Evening Update.... Did some work on the robot bunny.....but not much. Now remembering why I couldn't get much done before the kids went to school. Didn't really get five minutes in a row today without declarations of hunger or life threatening boredom interrupting me. The horrible thought that people with children get divorced just to get 5 mins to themselves, has just occurred....not a nice thought. It probably isn't true, just the idea of handing them over for the weekend was pretty damn attractive at about 3 o'clock today.

With a Laser Gun Daddy!!!.....

Another good day....I am keeping track, because I figure if the good days are outnumbering the bad I can't complain...and they are. Feeling like crap, not emotionally this time, got a cold....blurrgh....Of course I do... First time in six weeks my girlfriend is not on nightmare night shifts, and we both get sick!!! I can't think how I got it off her, or vice versa?.....oh wait ;)

So soppy romantic weekend is more likely to be zoned out on codral watching TV weekend....not the stuff of great love stories...Maybe I can get her to wear the nurse outfit....that might perk me up.

Started on a new picture today....at the request of my five year old daughter.....I was helping her draw some rabbits....She then asked if I could draw her "a bunny with a laser gun that looks like a carrot"..... Why not, it is a break from the Alice stuff, but still has a rabbit......

So I should get some sleep....and let the old immune system do its job. Damn winter and its associated malaise's.... zzzzzz......hack.....cough.....zzzzzz

Round Two......

Nope....too bloody tired..... Didn't sleep well and don't deal well with self created drama.  The worst part is I thought it was fine and then, same old crap. Can't deal today....So I will set the kids up with games and DVDs and I will start on some new pictures.

No new pics done....Did some more on old ones....and unpacked new camera....battery on to charge.

Feeling totally drained after arguing all night slash day....need some sleep. I wont get any but I should.

Wondering what I should take my first photo of with new camera, is that silly? There is a bit of a superstitious karma streak in me, and I think the first picture should be of something important.

Update..... That's pretty much me and the Ex in a nut shell....I send her a link to first apartment we ever lived in, as its for sale....She sends me an abrupt email about not being in a financial position to buy property, and has no clue it was meant to be an email to cheer her up.....It was a crap hole, and I thought it would remind her we had fun once....but instead I think she thought I was hassling her.... Oh well....

The Evening Wrap Up.... Bloody weird this relationship stuff.....hard to get used to a fight that ends in things being resolved and hugs.....This may seem weird as the ex and I never really fought....I thought for a long time that was good.....I don't think it was. I don't think we never fought, because things were perfect, quiet the apposite....because maybe neither of us was passionate enough about the other, to bother fighting to fix things.....

WTF?.....

So a day that should have been fine has just spiraled out of control.....Vodka and Pineapple Juice.....Homer Hudson Cookie Dough Ice cream.....Third Prozac of the day and probably a couple more codral than I should have taken...... I am the Lizard King!!!! How da feck does life go wrong so fast?

Simple Day.   Get up a bit late.....Go see sleepy wonderful girlfriend when she finishes nightshift....drive to Bathurst through nightmare road works....Takes an hour longer than it should.....Sit in cafe for a couple of hours trying to draw.....Pick up kids....Have to bribe kids with lunch with ex to get them out the door....Surly distracted ex spends entire lunch hour scowling at waitress and watch alternately....Get stuck with $50 check and no petrol money....Go see old friend who spends entire time gushing about her new boyfriend and seeking reassurance she wont sabotage it..... I tell her you just have to go for it and hope .... For this sage advice I receive a box of cushions.... I finish my coffee go do a little shopping and then..... BLAM!!! Strange txts and mood swings ...... Some days I should just stay in bed and pull the covers over my head.... Trying to be nice to everyone is hard work, or at least it is when you are feeling kicked in the guts. I really don't get why my faults are somehow more damaging than everybody elses.

So I will eat enough ice cream to choke the pain that the Prozac and vodka hasn't softened.

Don't Blog Sleepy......

Long day.... Slash weekend..... Not sure what happened? Gone from Happy to tired.... Maybe the cold I have been fighting caught up at last.  Sad and snotty....need a long nap.

Everything is Upside Down Miss Jane.......

Night shift is a bitch.....and I am not even the one doing it. My lovely Em has been working nights for the last couple of months, this has seriously cut into the time we can spend together.....thankfully it is her last one tonight, though she is still working till 11:30 next Saturday and Sunday night....but at least we get to wake up together, or would if I didn't have to do the markets on Sunday at 5am.....Hmmm may have to negotiate a deal with the Ex to keep the kids next Sunday night and I will get them Monday morning, don't want to ask her as I am feeling guilty that she isn't getting any weekend free time.....maybe I can offer her an extra Friday off when the holidays are over? or a piece of furniture.....or some shiny beads?

Good day at the markets today....very busy. Parted with a few of my better items.....but that is good....cleansing of the old life and all that....

And as is deemed fair by the gods of Karma and Kollectables, I made exactly the same amount I spent on the camera yesterday....Which is great, and seems right.

Red Red Wine.......

Spent Last night in Bathurst......Bathurst in winter is not selling me on a move.....Also decided it is the group of people you hit the town with that makes a night out.....Stayed in a pub.....it was.....well it was close to everything anyway.

Drank a bit too much....Stayed up a bit to late....dodged a fight....listen to a chisel cover band....well that is bathurst in a nutshell.

Woke up feeling like five miles of bad road, and a little worse the wear from over consumption and over exertion....but still stupidly happy.

So stupid in fact I went out and blew the arse out of my savings on a new camera, a camera is one of those things I promised myself ages ago and never got around to....well I just got around to it, and I will be off to the markets in the morning to sell off enough stuff to pay for it!!!!

Thursday is Still the New Friday.....

Can't be arsed taking the kids to school for a couple of hours....So the holidays have begun!!!! Three weeks an two days of no school....That should be fun. Foxtel installed, game systems primed......I just have to get them through the first 2 weeks, and then I hand them off for the final week.

So off to bathurst to drop them off for the weekend and staying to go out.....that should be great.

What time is it Mr Wolf?.....

4:30 am is a bugger of a time to be awake....for those of us with young ones or jobs. You know you will probably be awake at 6 or 7 at the outside anyway. So is 4:30 to late to bother going back to sleep, or is it to early to get up? At 3 to 4 the decision is easy, stay in bed, bunker down try to zzzzzzz......... At 5am to 6am not so bad, get up, have the warm beverage of your choice, enjoy the quiet house before everyone else gets up.

Door Number 3 - Write in blog about pesky 4:30 time issue until you notice problem is resolving itself..... but then again, in winter 5am is no treat for the man who left his ugg boots at the other end of a cold hallway. So I may press on here for a bit.

Colloquially speaking, it is cold as a witches tit here at the moment. Evil mammaries aside that is still damn cold. Been ripping through the environmental unfriendly woodpile at a rate of knots, or cords, or faggots... Whatever you measure wood usage in.   Love it when people frown at me for having wood heating, Yes of course it's bad for the planet, it's not like wood grows on tree's you know..... But I wish the money to pay for the wood did. That's the problem with children, they complain if they are freezing in the house...Now if it was just me I would curl up in bed under a pile of blankets till spring like any sensible lazy person, but with kids I have to emerge from my cave, light fires, cook food and convince them to wear jumpers and such....

Hey look it's 5am.....crisis over, return to your duties people, nothing to see here!!!!

The Afternoon Update - Busy morning, Pyjama day at school for the kids....This of course took 3 times longer than a usual day to get them ready, Something about having to get out of pyjamas in order to get into different pyjamas seems a bit pointless.

95% finished Cheshire Cat picture......I will leave it for now and add the final layer of shading and detail when I find the right frame, and frame of mind.

So in while I am waiting for the right frame and matt to appear, I have started work on yet another wonderland inspired piece......

Bad Phone........

The Blackberry Storm is not in my good books!!!! It has this annoying little glitch of sending the mushy txt you are writing to your girlfriend, to your ex-wife....No really, it is not me being careless, it is my phone being evil!! No harm done, I noticed shortly after it was sent....so it was only awkward on one level, and not two.

Scenario 1 - Ex gets mushy email.....instantly realizes what a romantic and loving man she has lost and responds enthusiastically with declarations of love.....

Scenario 2 - Ex gets mushy email..... Then sends me a long email stating that, she knows I truly love her and want only her, but she just wants to be friends....

Both those Scenarios.....were avoided by my quick follow-up explanation, that and the fact that my ex is not a total dumb ass, and would have figured out there was a txt mix-a-lot going on anyway. So my guess is.....
Scenario 3 - Ex gets mushy email...... Instantly knows its not for her..... Suppresses her gag reflex at mushiness of txt.... Saves txt to show friends and dine out on story....

So bit of cringe for me.... and free drinks, chuckles and a good story for the ex.... No harm, No foul .....

Good try evil phone...... but not good enough!!!!

It can't be that easy Mr.Maslow....

Feels weird.....I am happy and relaxed....not waiting for dropping shoes or anything. Hierarchy theory must be pretty bloody balanced at the moment....I personally think some stuff at the pointy bit on top dropped in, knocking a few other bits into place....a bit like an emotional well being tetris game.

The Evening Post -

So the ex arrived....Late as usual.....Strangely though I don't mind, I was always a lot more forgiving of my friends than my wife. I think I was upset not at the end of the marriage but at the thought of losing a friend.

My girlfriend is now over the moon as I have told my ex about us and all is tentatively well....Girlfriend asked me to thank ex....might be a bit early for that ;) but I know what she means...she is just grateful that everyone gets the chance to be happy....my girlfriend knows the destruction a vindictive ex can reek, and is very grateful for the chance at happiness my ex has given me....So am I now that I think about, that and many other things, we may have been a second rate couple, but she is a first rate friend.

That's not a good colour for it......

The winter solstice has coincided with the moon exiting Uranus.....that metaphor doesn't really work, just saying I am not well and been visiting the bathroom with explosive regularity......So not much will get done today......Unless the Jackson Pollock work I am currently painting the bathroom with counts? To much information? Probably but my bum is feeling like this today!!!.....

Other than that world is a happy smiley place....

The Evening Post -

Wow......great talk with the ex....I mean sad, but good....Like the final full-stop in the part with the anger and regret. It's not magically fixed the friendship, the friendship that we probably never should been anything but.....but it really did feel like the start of the next bit. I know it will take time, and their will be awkward times, but we will be ok....I really believe that. We are bonded by 20 years of life and the two most amazing children that could of been a DNAster, but instead are gorgeous and amazing humans.

I think a lot of the people that decide to separate cause so much of the drama, and trouble because they want the other person to suffer for hurting them....and they find it very hard to get away from that..... thankfully I think we are both past that nasty stage....admittedly it may have been me causing that. We talked about the welfare of the kids, and the new lives we were trying to make for ourselves..... and how we got here.... and where we hope to go..... all stupidly grown up with only one awkward hug.

Transvision Vamp.....Baby!!!.....

All good, survived 24hrs in Bathurst....and barely had to resort to any Jack Bauer-esqe water boarding to get the information I needed. Big irony thing.....The person who wants me to move to bathurst for her own reasons, has trouble putting two words together around me, making me feel like an unwanted guest....and the woman who has a million reasons for me not to move is the one telling me I should....with a caveat or three of course.....That I move for myself, not that old misguided Joan of Arc "Don't worry, I brought my own cross/pire" thing.....That I work through my issues with bathurst with Life Coach (yes....a shrink).....That I tell people she is coming with me.....Already started on the last one....Long talk with "The Daddy", he was fine with it and said something to the effect of the heart knows what the heart wants (but in a less twee way).... Told an old friend, she was ecstatically happy for me, she has recently embraced sanity and a good man again, and was very supportive and understood why, in fact she is the first person to put it into words for me, so I can say .....I like who I am when I am with her, she loves me, we have passion and support and security..... and that cant be a bad thing.

I often said in my younger days.....it is possible to talk in only 1980's pop lyrics.....I may get there one day...

Aldous Leonard Huxley can Kiss my Ass....

My Drug driven Utopia rocks ;) not really but i am starting to think that I have stopped needing the Prozac for depression and anxiety so much.....however it is still functioning as a wonderful aide to creativity and application....Obviously it works on the bit of my brain that used to distract me.....Bit worried this means I will have to find helpful doctors to be "depressed" at for ever....but I also hold the hope that once the gateway is opened, it stays open even when I am not taking the happy pills.

Off to Bathurst in a bit....looking after the kids at the ex's tonight so she can go out with new "friend" and friends....It still stings a bit....but not for any good reason...maybe just ego? Wish I could have made her happy.....but I guess that's what I am doing....She looks happier...and that is what I really want for her, and me and the kids....So happy apart was better than angry together....How very grown-up.

My new friends night shift work is killing me....and not to good for her....very glad there is only three weekends left of it....

Twelve impossible things before breakfast.....

So after pretty much talking myself out of going to bathurst next year.....My good friend and one of the reasons not to go, starts talking me round to the idea....she was dead against it last week....and I was worried it would put to much stress on our fledgling relationship. So still nothing carved in stone, but it is back on table.

Reasons against leaving mountains.....A big one is the clothing.....I love OP shopping here!!! This morning I scored a Ted Baker Blazer for $10....my wardrobe is completely filled with high end clothes that cost nothing.... I can't give that up!! Not a very zen reason I know. Very nice coffee shops up here. Chance of bumping into ex and her partner De Jour in mountains - low....Chance of ex bumping into me and partner in mountains - low. Chances for awkwardness in Bathurst - high. Chances of Successful art career in Bathurst - more difficult. Mountains makes me a small fish in a weird bowl.

Reasons to go....Kids get to see their mum when they want, Variety of baby sitters on tap....Zero travel time, reduced rent and petrol... Chance of 9-5 job - high.... Bathurst makes me Big fish in small puddle, also a fish with a target on my gills!!!!

Head go boom.....

Yawn....Slept in.....kids late to school....I think I did to much thinking yesterday about the future. Taking a day of relaxing and movie viewing to calm down. Just watched Kick - Ass, while sorting the laundry. I'm a rebel ;)

Still a bit twitchy....even went the next Prozac a bit early. Downloaded a pointless app for the ipad, much easier to find than helpful ones.

So now I can have a roaring fire beside my bed that tells me the time and weather forecast....It will even wake me up in the morning with a view from my hotel in Provence.....

My 5 year old just pointed out the silliness of having a fire on the ipad and no fire in the fire place. Little wise arse. Just TXT-ing in my mate Mel in Lismore, telling her to stop being my mate in Lismore and get her but down here!!! I need the artistic motivation!!! I really think this book could be done by the end of the year if she was here.

Just checking weather report....Looks like there maybe a brief bit of sunshine on Sunday....So a trip to markets is needed.

Bit of last minute drama for the night....Little Miss Five year old drama Queen, lost her first tooth while brushing it tonight.....Many tears and questions about how the tooth fairy would know she had really lost a tooth!!! Two choices....Try and convince her the tooth fairy would know, smile while she slept so the tooth fairy would see the gap, kind of talk.......or get a wrench and pull the s-bend out and pray to the fairy gods!....The wrench and pray seemed easier.

If only all problems in my life could be sorted with a wrench....Tooth recovered and bagged under pillow....now I just have to wait around with my wings on and do the cash tooth swap without getting caught.

The deed is done!!! I am the god of tooth fairies!!!

Hmmmmmm........

Bloody hell it is cold.....Just got paid.....and just about broke again.....not a fun thing this week to week living. Need a house mate or a job!!

Had a talk with the ex yesterday that went ok.....I only said one dumb thing....about hair dye.....if I could keep all my conversations down to one stupid unthinking comment I would be happy. Trying to get my head round this move to Bathurst idea....and it just doesn't want to.....maybe if I tell it I am moving to Rockley it will be better? Really not sure....Hence the Hmmmm.

It's only raining outside....

Public holiday boredom has set in......waiting for my delivery of kids, I have a cold cup of coffee and I am to lazy to find the remote to turn the tv on.......now that's livin!

Big noisy promise I made.....I will never own another house!!! I am going to have to revise that to....I will never have another mortgage!!!..... A serious change in mind set regarding my future financial security....I do not want to be a broke old person living week to week. That would suck. So I need a house that I own outright.....tricky but not impossible. I think maybe it is time to get out the crayons and butcher paper and design a house.....how hard can it be....stay tuned :)

This Week in Hollyweird.....

Insanely good birthday....I mean best ever, or at least equal with my 10th when I got that x-wing fighter. The whole world is getting weirder by the day, perhaps this explains my current fixation with Alice in Wonderland...Definitely feeling like I stepped through the looking glass at some point.... This is not a problem I think I am going to give this life a good shot, and not worry about trying to get back. The idea of a move back to Bathurst however is not sitting well with me or other parties with a vested interest in my location.

This needs some real thought....There is this lovely long list of things that become easier if I do move.....but there is a shorter list of things that don't. And the things that don't, don't want me to go. I know it may make things better for the kids, and better for the EX to get access to kids.... The school thing worries me, their current school is very expensive, but unique....but I am willing to believe that maybe offset by input from their mother.....Maybe the biggest stumbling block for me, this week, is what's in it for me. Selfish maybe, but also honest. If I feel like I have made yet another sacrifice, their is a chance I will start to resent it, I don't like being that person. I may have to work out a deal with the ex..... For the sake of myself and kids, she has a successful career, financial security and a nice big super plan. I have ..... ummmmmm ...... well not a lot of long term prospects, at this point, and zero financial security. Don't get me wrong I don't think the world or my ex owes me the world, but maybe it would be nice to be recognized for the part I played in her getting to where she is.

On the happy memory part.... Vivid Festival in Sydney was amazing and relaxing and joyful....

On the work front, well busy social life means way behind in work......This week I will try harder.



And Straight on till Morning.....

Just back from a great weekend in Sydney, Saw the lights, Drank the wine and lived.....Felt great....feels great.... In a weird place emotionally right now. I know it is to soon to be rushing into anything, but I just want to be happy. What's the point of waiting around to see what happens, to much looking before leaping, in my life.... Close your eyes and jump is the new motto....

The Day After......

Just a quick post today, still in middle of birthday week......First stop parent teacher night at school, that should be a barrel of something they put in a barrel. Then a very long overdue night out....A nice sleep in tomorrow and then a slow trip to a flash hotel in Sydney....and then tomorrow night, dinner in The Rocks and a few hours wandering around the Vivid Festival, light art installations, scattered around the harbour and streets of The Rocks. I have been the last two years....

The Lapin's Birthday message.....

Sharing a birthday with the queen rocks.....Mainly because it often means my birthday has been a day off for the nation!!! How special am I ;) this year however it is a Wednesday and the long weekend is not for a few days.....how will people know to thank me?

It has been a really good day, and that is very surprising.....because I have in the past had a long string of cursed birthdays.... So maybe this positive new attitude has convinced Karma to give me a break this year.

I awoke to cheerful birthday greetings from cheerful children....

I collected a gift from the post office....as mood lightning as it was unexpected....

After that a very lovely lunch with my bestus friend....and some gifts that required no feigning of enthusiasm!!!

Some smelly stuff, an insomnia journal and a fake book for keeping my stash in.....as soon as I have something worth stashing that is.....

Off for a birthday with friends and kids and cake.....feeling v.loved and lucky.

Just back......and cake can make you happy :)

Chocolate Bunny cake...that is chocolate cake with a bunny on it....not a chocolate bunny.... the bunny is marzipan, which is much tastier than velveteen.



Blind Sided by Epiphany.......

And there it is folks......the pre birthday Epiphany....bugger....

I have always believed that although shitty things happen and people do something that effects you negatively, once you acknowledge it your screwed....you have to stop blaming the world for how you are behaving, and own it.....bugger.....

Had a conversation with the now officially EX last night that resulted in the bloody Epiphany, 2 seconds after putting the phone down..... For all the other crap I could blame her for .... I am the one who ended the relationship by my own actions. So I don't even get to be angry at her anymore....Well that just blows, I was only running on angst....

So undiscovered country lays ahead.....Hopefully at some point down the track I can patch up some kind of friendship with her. I mourn the loss of that, but we said what we both  needed to hear.....this wasn't a trial separation this was the end of that part of our lives.

Hmmmmm........ this is all a bit much to take before coffee.

Afternoon....about two and and half hours after..... Just had a nice long talk with the daddy..... that really helped ..... talked to him about the separation being a permanent one ....He pointed out that once you separate the only thing it achieves is letting you know you can cope .... Wise man for an old hippy .... So I talked to him about my business plan, and the kids, school and the possibility of moving back to bathurst for the ex and kids sake.... He asked is that what I want .... I must admit it isn't .... yet .....I think moving back now would be very destructive for the ex and I ..... I want to see out this year up here I think .... I need the distance right now to let this go .... I want to be her friend and have her in my life .... but I can't do that till I am over the relationship and in a healthy place with it .... Also not sure my son is quiet ready to change schools just yet ..... 7 months is a very long time in his world .... But I suspect he would get eaten alive at this point ..... I don't want to separate them from their mother .... I suspect she has the makings of a very good one .... if she had the chance, which she didn't have while we were together.... I was mum and dad most of the time .... and that cheated us both.

So I will ask her to keep contact to the essentials for a while so we can both let go of the anger....I can't imaging my life without her in it .... so I will forgive her .... and myself and hope that if I can be a person she wants to know again.....without losing myself this time

Evening Post....... Bloody hell it's cold!!! They say it will snow tomorrow....Snow on my birthday, I could treat that as tabula rasa......

Yet Another Monday.......

Let the Birthday week begin!!!! Every single birthday, since I was 12, has blown.....Call it the result of a broken home...bad relationships....or some crap like that..... So Happy Friggan B'Day Week!!!

Today is involving finishing my new studio off, working on an Alice picture and a Blu-ray of Crank....very relaxing.....

The Evening post.....Ahhh of course the traditional birthday shit storm approaches.... Silly of me to think it wouldn't really. Probably bought half of it on myself this time..... got to learn to stop upping the obnoxious behaviour to the level where it gets a reaction.... I don't mean to do it....just don't cope very well with silence I guess. That is something I really need to get in check....That, and this nasty little see-saw effect that seems to be going on with getting my life together on a professional level vs falling apart on an emotional one.... I cant spend the rest of my life chewing Prozac like pez.... If this keeps up I will be very successful and miserable....I guess that's better than just miserable.

I Told You I Was Sick......

Spike Milligan wanted that on his grave stone.....I think he got it. I don't feel well but I don't think its quite that bad. Feeling a bit like I got nailed by the flu bus....Still managed to clear out the back room ready to put my drafting table in there. I will see if I can move it myself.....or see if the ex's drop the children lasts longer than five minutes and ask her?

Decided I need the house to be clean as by Wednesday, Not having another birthday in a disorganised house....Start as you mean to go on and all that motivational toss...

Today I will continue of the Alice theme......started to rough out an Cheshire Cat......Not sure where it is going yet.....Might see how I go with just black ink.....see how much darkness I can get with just pens...

A rough outline....fairly happy with the composition.....10pm and the flu is starting to kick in..... I will try and get the cat inked in the morning I think.....

Down the Rabbit Hole.....

Haircut has truly improved my mood.....It's a little too Rock n Rolla, but what the hell it's not like I have a day job. V.Relaxed day yesterday, Just hung about in a coffee shop, sketching and getting my head into a better place....been having a few serious tussles with the black dog lately, tussles that even the double dose of Prozac couldn't scare away....I have always been prone to depression....but I have also managed to keep it check....and today feeling like I have a good solid leash on it.....

Thinking of doing a series of pictures based around Alice in Wonderland.....So I thought a good start might be, to have a shot at doing something in the style John Tenniel's original Alice illustrations....and then evolve something of my own from those.....Here is my first shot at a Tenniel White Rabbit (unfortunately my scanner is too small to get his feet in, I think I need an A3 scanner)......

Thursday is the New Friday.....

Day Four of just getting on with stuff.....and I am just getting on with stuff. A quick run to school and back to finish framing picture....A clean of the house....Pick up kids....5 year olds Birthday party....Home for movie night with kids....it's a full life :) of course I will shoe horn in the stuff I want to do around that.... Coffee mainly... and some work of course.

Lunchtime - Present wrapped, House clean and a quick shower....Thinking about moving my bedroom into the front room, and putting the drafting table in the sun room.... That would make this a four bedroom house, I am not really using the other lounge room.....but I may leave that decision till after I look at a new house on Saturday morning.

After Party.....Oh dear God!!! 20 five year olds with limitless sugar and party noise makers......My ears are still ringing....Kids had a great time.....they are both now tired and complaining of stomache aches....Just like daddy after a party....Now I have a headache and no good time to blame it on....oh well, that's being a grown up for you.

Wednesday......The Power of Three.....

Middle of the week....Hump day....if only....actually I don't mind Wednesdays. My Daughters middle name is Wednesday.....I tell people it's because of the Addams family, which in part is true....but also she was conceived and born on a Wednesday....It is a name she has grown into, my creepy little spider lovin monkey.

Just wrapping up another water colour tonight, I have birthday party to take the kids to tomorrow...Bathurst on Friday.....I have been considering a haircut.....I need a change....Tempted to walk in and ask for a HARD MAN.....This is amusing if you ever watched coupling. My hair grows so damn fast a good haircut lasts about two weeks before it starts to look crap.....So the inverse is true of a bad haircut...Two weeks is the longest it ever makes me look like I made a mistake.....I am going to forgo the head massaging and accidental chest bumps of my regular hairdresser, and go to a barber......This will either go fine, or necessitate the need for hats!!!

Denial over impending birthday.....actually it must be good denial because I honestly keep forgetting....I have a few things planned this time, so fingers crossed....bit rusty on this proper dating thing.

Almost finished picture.....Need it to dry before I can scan it.....It may seem strange putting in a lot of effort for a friends five year old, but seeing as my most of my pictures seem to end up on the walls of children's bedrooms, presenting a nice framed pic at a party full of kids and parents is actually quite good advertising.

Almost 11pm......Picture finished....I will mount and frame it in the morning.

Watching Scrooged on Foxtel....I have watched so many adaptions of A Christmas Carol....I first saw it, or at least I first remember watching it at school in movie club, year 5 or 6 maybe.....16mm copy in a dimmed classroom...not sure which version it was...lots of rattling chains and open graves....and I loved it.....I watch every version I can.....I wish someone would put together a compilation of them....I have watched Christmas carol versions of Six Million Dollar Man, MacGuyver, I have seen Capt Picard leave the deck of the Enterprise long enough to play Scrooge. Family Ties, Black Adder and even the Muppets have had a go.....

I think I really only like Scrooged because it has Bill Murray in it, which reminds me of Groundhog Day.....another  great source of TV Time loop versions...Stargate and X-files have both done very good takes on it...also Star Trek, Xena Warrior Princess, Buffy and more recently Supernatural and Blood Ties.

Maybe it is telling that I seek out these two stories in any form I find them.....Obvious, but telling.