On the 9th Day of Xmas My True Love Gave to Me...

I was going to start that way....but of course the 12 Days of Xmas starts on Xmas, so that would be wrong. Anyway just feeling good, and was trying to be chipper in the title. As expected the thing that I thought would go well, went well. Which was nice. I got to say I told you so, in a good natured way... and the clouds cleared, the sun came out, birds sang and all the crap.... The other side looked like they had been bitch slapped, but that's Karma for you...

So just like in T2 Judgement Day, we are back at that "No Fate" bit.... Thank goodness....

9 days till Xmas....Yikes....Lots and Lots to do, lots done and for the first time in many years I can truly say I am looking forward to it.... There will be some unavoidable cross over between old life and new... But to be honest I am over shielding people from reality, and my ex is my ex, so not really my job to make her feel anymore comfortable in my house than any other guest... So hopefully it will be drama free, and I would rather annoy someone without emotions than someone with.

In an attack of insanity today I started making my own decorations. I am taking this tinsel free thing very seriously....

Try Rubbing this for Luck.....

Ok I will admit it.... I am an atheist..... Not a noisy one, because I  am so atheistic I don't even think about being one.... So it is completely illogical that I believe in Luck, Karma and Fate? Well not to me, because I don't attribute these things to gods, aliens or rubbing two magic pixes together... It is hard to explaining with out seeming hippy dippy.... I put myself in between the gaps I guess no strong convictions, just an annoying and persistent belief that everything works out... That is not a passive thing though, you have to guide the right thing, even when you dont know what it is... Plan A through Plan E is not unusual in my life, sometimes you change the plan sometimes you change the goal... It all works out for the best I tend to find... Even if its not what I expected... But like most people I do harbour a few superstitions, a little OCD lucky rabbit me... And because I am not a knock on wood kind of guy... I will not say what I believe will happen, right now.... Lets just say (at 11:30 on a Tuesday night), that I will be rubbed well tomorrow, and I suspect the result will be a happy bunny...

An Apple a Day.....

Obvious I know.....but is 11:30pm.....I just finished a giant online xmas food shopping spree... Organised a last minute baby sitter (More on that Thursday)... Half cleaned the house and popped a whole Valium.... So it is a race against time here.... Decided in the past I was pushed, this time I am going to jump.... and I did more work on more new computer today than on my old one in the last two months.... Who would of thunk it?

Better.....

Better Day..... Better Weekend.... and a picture that kind of says that too I guess?

So I drank a cup of coffee and got given a free bottle of wine, because I am a good customer.... Since I only go there maybe once a month, for a cup of coffee, he must have meant I am a good customer, not a regular one.....

Industrial Laziness....

Taking a break from insane rants to get back to doing something more productive.... In between picking things up today I hit a few garage sales... I got my purchases home to realize their had been a shift in buying patterns... With retro and collectibles I was always cautious of condition... a small mark or scratch could halve the value.... With the embracment of Industrial by the cutting edge, I now don't care if something is worn or rusty, in fact I leave somethings out in the garden a few weeks to really get them up to showroom condition.... No more sanding filling and repairing for me.... Industrial is the best thing since unsliced bread....

Love and other Bitch Slaps.....

It is just funny....not ha ha funny, but isn't life funny after the second bottle of wine and 2nd vodka cruiser poured over melted ice cream funny.... Fattening, Painkiller Funny.... All I needed was some sign that people could pull their head out of their arse long enough to see things weren't going well... Silly me... The temporary high of shopping is gone... The beautiful fuzz of Prozac, vodka, Valium in the shape of expensive ice cream and Valium in the shape of Valium is doing its job well.....Cant focus on anything to be angry about for more than 10 seconds.... I have drugged myself into the mind scape of a goldfish...blub...blub.....blub....

So cheers to my fragile Girlfriend who I have broken for over 20 years.... and cheers to my emotionally retarded and badly dressed ex....cheers to my toxic mother and distant father and cheers to my emotional eating.... I will sober up tomorrow and be OK for a while.... everyone else will still be selfish pricks, but I know I will try to be just over that halfway mark of selfish arse and just into trying to make things better.... Lapin is off to finish the ice cream and yell obscenities in poor french at arse hats on xbox live.... Its a wonderful life.....

Allergic to Shellfish.....

Not in a happy bubbly little mood at the moment....more like a big fuk'in dark cloud.... A week of people asking me about leaving, finally reached breaking point today.... The last day of school... It was raining and I wore dark glasses but even that wasn't fooling anyone.... After the forth person asked I was starting to lose it...then I see my beautiful boy wander up the corridor, being hugged and given xmas gifts by students and teachers.... and when he saw me his bottom lip dropped and trembled... and there were tears from us both.... The head of school hugged me and told me how sad she was that we were going and we spoke of Sebastian's amazing progress....Lily was quite... and on the edge of tears, not the get your own way tears she is so good at, but just lost and upset tears.... My son hugged the school goodbye and I fell apart.... I got home and read the notes the teachers had written for my children, I sat outside and wept openly.....

It would have been a nice day to get some support from anywhere....but not today it seems....and I won't be holding my breath for the ex to contact her children, to make sure they are OK.... Some days it just seems a little unfair.... I try to keep the world an upbeat place, it would be nice if the world made an effort when I couldn't... I am off to eat ice-cream and drink vodka.... and tomorrow I will dust myself off and smile and try and make everything OK, for everyone else again.... not because I am a martyr in case that's what your thinking.... But I have come to far to stop being allergic to selfish....

Chain Gang.....

Child labour laws have been temporarily suspended at Maison De Lapin, due to the last minute school xmas cards and candy cane rush.... 50 cards in sleepy kid font.... and a cheap candy cane stuffed in the envelope. That's xmas for you right there.... Please don't pay to much attention to that Bah-Humbuggery, it was actually great fun...

The kids and I wrote a note to print out and put in every card....I tried not to make it too sad, even though that wasn't how I felt -

We are all so grateful for the wonderful memories the staff, parents and students have given us all.... and while we must move on to our next adventure, a little part of us will always smile at the thought of Korowal.... We hope this not a goodbye... but au revoir....

“Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.”

All our Best from Lily and Sebastian and Shayn...

So that is how it will end, and I try to believe that I am doing the right thing....I should have made the ex pick them up from school these last few days... To see my son chatting and laughing with other kids... other parents telling me how sad it was we were leaving, and how far he has come....even the reminder call from the librarian about overdue books was accompanied by a genuine message of how much she would miss him.... He came out of school today wearing a silk scarf that he had made himself and he was so proud... and a trip to shops after school resulted in some older girls from the school seeing lily and running up saying "huggy"...she smiled and hugged them both.... One of those glad I was wearing glasses moments....

So school will end....I will have a big xmas with friends and family and an over flowing house... My kids will experience a real xmas... for now that is my focus... and if I fall arse backwards into a shit load of cash....all bets are off....

Love Shack Baby....

I got me a couch, it's as big as a whale
And we're headin' on down to the Love Shack
I got me a Lounge, it seats about 20
So hurry up and bring your jukebox money....

So the piano left.....and the room feels much less cramped and darkened by it's looming black presence... The couch is beyond ridiculous of course....and I suspect I will split it into two separate lounges.... But for now a 8 meter couch is somewhat funny, and I need a bit of funny to adjust the karma of the room back to happy shiny.... The absence of posts for the last few days should be seen for what is was... Busy and not in the mood.... Back on track now... One room ready for xmas, just the rest of the house to go...

I can see clearly now.....

Not really but now I can listen to that song..... Long week ending with a longer weekend..... Not really sure what the problem with everyone else on the damn planet is.... but I went garage sailing and came back with a industrial feel.